but words can break your heart.
Sabi ng isang random asker kay Paolo “Kimpoy” Feliciano, my love, nakakatawa ito pero ang galing at least makatotohanan..
“Kuya, totoo bang ang mga lalaki ang mas matagal maka move on kesa sa mga babae?”
Sagot niya ay..
“Ganito kasi yan. Ang mga lalaki pagkatapos ng breakup pakiramdam namin nakalaya na kami. Single kasi ulit, ganun. Parang sobrang gaan sa pakiramdam. Wala ng drama, wala na masyadong iintindihin, sobrang tipid, parang pakiramdam mo kasi hindi ka na nakatali. Pero pagkatapos nun unti-unti namin mararamdaman na.. wala ng nag-aasikaso, wala ng nagtetext, wala ng sweet, wala ng nakaka-appreciate nung mga simpleng bagay na ginagawa namin. Ngayon namin mararamdaman na may kulang, ngayon kami magsisisi, ngayon namin marerealize yung nawala samin, kung ano yung pinakawalan namin. Kung kailan naka-move on na yung babae.
Dahil ang babae pagkatapos ng breakup, malulungkot, iiyak, heartbroken. Nauuna yung lungkot bago yung saya. Hindi katulad sa lalaki na masaya muna tapos malulungkot. Pero ang babae once maka-move on yan, hindi mo na mababalikan pa. Kaya kadalasan lalaki yung bumabalik at naghahabol. Kasi nun palang niya marerealize kung ano yung nawala sa kanya.”
Have you ever had someone whom you never thought would love you the way you want to be loved? I do.
Let me introduce this person to you. He is a 3rd year student like me, and he has kickass hair and awesome brains. Actually brain kasi isa lang naman siya. Hahaha. This person, is someone I love very much. In my community, we aren’t allowed to have a romantic relationship. I mean it’s not that it’s not allowed, it’s just not encouraged. I’ve been on an on-and-off relationship with this person for the past 8 months. On-and-off because as it was stated above, we weren’t “allowed” to have a relationship. My friends in community have always told me that whatever this thing is that I have with this person, it’s just “feelings.” Sa community kasi, feelings are things that really just, come and go. It’s not that it’s not important because feelings are what make us human, but to them/us, decisions and big things in life like relationships should not be based on feelings. Because as true as it is, feelings are very much unstable. Yeah maybe what I do have with him are feelings, BUT THAT DOESN’T MAKE ALL OF IT FEELINGS. :-) I’m really proud to have him in my life, although he doesn’t see it, he is very smart, sweet and loving.
Kung may nakakabasa man nito na from community, you would really judge me or have the impression that this person and I have ONLY feelings for each other and nothing more, but the truth is, you know nothing about me. And you know nothing about what we’ve been through together. I know this person would catch a bullet for me, and in a heartbeat pa ha. I know this person loves me. And I love him, too. That’s why we’re willing to wait, wait for the right to for us. The right time to be together, the right time to love each other. Because right now, we know that we must put God first in our lives. We love God more than we love each other, and God is in the center of our relationship. We are not a couple….yet. But we will be someday.
Bubu, “We met at the wrong time, that’s what I keep telling myself anyway. Maybe one day, years from now, we’ll meet in a coffee shop in a far away city somewhere and we could give it another shot.”
I’m so proud to have you in my life, not just because you love me very much, but because I love you very much as well.